outgoing VS. shy

Few days ago I realized that I'm totally from a different planet than my friends are. I mean, I'm more outgoing than shy. I love to be with friends. I love to chat with others. I love to go out there and have fun with friends. Yes, I do like to be by my own. I do like it, and I believe that everybody needs a little bit of time to themselvs. No one should always go around and around with everyone all the time. People needs time to themselves. We are not robots.

Sometimes I need some time to myself and when I need it, I just take it. It's simple as that. But I still love to go everywhere. Somehow I'm so bored to go alone everywhere, but then again I try to "let go" of my friends. I mean, why do I always have to go with someone, why not to go alone. It can't be that bad. Well, I tried it and it was a little weird at first, but I guess that you can use to it.

But the thing that I have thought quite much is that am I just more outgoing than my friends, or are they just that shy to go somewhere with lot of other people around. I guess that my uncle's presence has affected me somehow. I love to go out with a lot of friends around and their friends around, meet some new persons, maybe make some friends and just have fun. And what could be more perfect day than that. I don't want to go always with my uncle and his friends, not that I don't like his friends. Yes they funny, I like them but they are his friends. Yes I love to make some new friends, but when you are almost everytime with same people you can't meet new people.

And that is what I want to do with my friends, but they are more withdrawn than outgoing. Or that's what it feels like. I can use example for this one too. " Hi, what are you doing tonight? Wanna go somewhere and have fun? " " Oh hi, I can't, I'm with my other friend. " It feels weird to me that they never say " but hey come with us ". Guess I'm just used to that kind of action if someone asks someone else to go out to have fun and say I can't come. I have used to live like that. Go out with lot of people. But My friends don't do it, only they want to do is be with that one friend in that one spot and not even think about going somewhere else. That is just something I don't quite understand, why to be with one friend, why not with lot of friends. More friends and people is more fun. Why to take something so less when you can choose to take it lots of it?

And it's quite good way to meet new people that way. And it doesn't mean that you have to be friends with everyone you don't know. Only if you want to, then go for it. But if you want to just have fun talk with them, laugh with them, you don't have to throw a party to do that. There's so many other ways to have fun with lot of people around you, but when people are going to see that?

-Frankie

All I want to do is watch all their movies

Where to begin this one. Urm, yeah maybe I should just start writing, text will come or better way to say it: words will come.
They always come, I just have to write and keep my mind empty while writing. I can not think anything while writing because then I would forget what was I writing. I almost write here that I have very good example but no, no I do not have. One for sure is that I just get two messages for whatsapp, but I have ignore them or I will forget what I was writing. So now I am totally focused with this one. And it means that I can write listen music or watch through the car window and I can not forget what was I writing. The mood is perfect. Yes, I do have moods for writing too, if you do not have the right mood you just can not write. I have moods for like everything. Haha, well not exactly, but almost.
Just like I have mood for watching movies. And this is great
moment to go my subject: actors.

I like lot of actors, but sometimes I have these days that there's one acfor stuck in my mind and I just want to watch his/her movies all day long. Well yesterday and today there have two actors stuck in myind. Robert Downey Jr. and Rupert Grint and that means movie time all the time. Well almost, come on! Think how many movies Robert have or Rupert. Well Rupert do not have that much movies than Robert. But still. It would take days to watch all of Roberts movies.
And honestly this sucks sometimes, because you want to do something else but you can't focus.

Okay well I do not remember when I was first introduced for Robert by my friend. It seems to ling time ago. I do not even remember what was the first movie from him that I saw, but obviously I liked it alot. Nowdays actors just don't stuck in my mind often or badly or whatnot. But I think that Robert is very good actor. And he seems funny, I can't say how funny he really is because I don't know him. Or how perfect he is or if he is perfect at all. I like him and that is enough for me. Well yeah he is also good looking. But yeh I have like him longer than Rupert.
And then rupert. Well I have not exactly seen him before Half-Blood prince or Deathly Hallows. Yes he is all the potter movies but I just have not seen him. I like him also a lot and think that he is good looking too.
So yeah all I want to do is watch all their movies and nothing else, but I just can't watch day after day movies. I have to do something else too, yeh sure I like those guys, but... I do have a life. But maybe I should just enjoy the time I have and watch as much movies as I want to.

-Frankie

I'm not going home, not really

Earlier today when I was sitting in bus I was wondering that how wonderful is to go home. But then again is this my home anymore? Sure my mom lives here, but I don't feel like this is my home, home life. I never love it in here or like it in here. Never. That is simple as that.
But yes, technically it is my home as much as my own home. But I just don't love it in here, somewhere deep inside of me I do know that my heart belongs to big city. Well if I can say that Turku is big city but it's bigger than this one. For me, here's nothing. And I mean it, nothing. I do not have any friends here, never had actually. I do not know what to do, than chat with my friends, watch some movies or stay up late. Fuck that!
Well sure I can chat with my friends and watch some movies and stay up late back in Turku also but... I guess you got my point. In here, I do not have anything than my lap top and my own thoughts. And that really sucks. My heart and my soul belongs to the cities, not to towns. I do love my mom, but this is her life, not mine.
So every time when I'm coming here i feel like "I'm not going home, not really" if I can quote those words from first Harry Potter movie. My home will always be there where my heart is and where I love to be.

-Frankie