How could you be afraid to talk?

Her, she etc - Person1
Her, she etc - Person2


How could you be afraid to talk with someone this much? I mean, this person is real nice, which I know, but... It's just so hard to talk to her. Maybe it's because I'm afraid of her reaction- but why? I'm not even sure why am I so afraid of her reaction- is it because I'm afraid that I just thought her name out loud? Maybe it is only that, but... What if I really thought her name out loud? Then I'm so fucked up, because.... I really do not want to say her name out loud. I want to keep it to myself, then she is going to lecture me and I don't want that to happen. Even I know she's real nice, but she could do it- not saying that for sure but... Only God knows.


Oh God, I do not know what to think about. My head is so messed up again. I do not know should I cry or laugh- or do both.


-Sparrow