hmh

My day is ruined again...

The woman from that Kisällikellari place send me a text message that she have taken for me time to see occupational health care's woman for the check and after taht I've to go to the Kisällikellari. And she also put there that hope I answer for her pretty soon 'cause if the time doesn't suit for me she could change it.
But hah, guess what I planned to do? I won't answer for her message, and I won't answer for her if she calls me, because I'm " sleeping ".
And I text that for my mum and told her that I won't answer for anyone else but for her * i mean my mum * 'cause I'm sleeping... So HA !

Peoplse should got to use to that I won't answer always or pick up the phone always if their calling for me. And they just have to accept that I'm not going to Kisällikellari. I already told that for the women who text me.

OH CRAP! now that social shit woman called me... HAHAH, but I didn't answer for her...
they have to thought that I AM SLEEPING...
God, hope their not coming behind my door! well that's their problem, 'cause I'm not open it 'cause I'm not waiting anyone.

Oh, and I really thought that they understand that if I said that I don't want to go there, and I expect that they wont force me to go there.... duh, their fucking adults!

And they're forcing me to go there, I mean Kisällikellari, only because I do have to be something nice to do for days. Well, I sure do by my own make something nice to do for days in here...
It just... Well honestly, I don't know what it is.

Maybe it's just this flat where am I living; all those things what ave had happen in here and... This whole city, I just want to move out of here.
Well guess Turku is better than nothing, but I'm not so sure do I want to move Turku neither.
I mean I've said that I want to move out of Turku, somewhere far way from Turku..
Well maybe not litrally far away, but far away... Like Helsinki or Tampere... Those sounds pretty far away from Turku, and maybe there I could start a whole new life.

Well maybe not a whole new life, but new life... Make some friends and that kind of things, you know.
And honestly I don't have much friends in here, well sure I have Jenna here,
but I don't see her like every week or every weekends... She don't have enough money or so....

But surely I could figure out something nice to do in here, that's not a problem at all...
I have even clean in here, and I hate cleaning real bad, but I did it!
But, I don't know do there have to be but's or well's or so's, it just comes automaticlly...

I was suppose to go in IRC-Galleria to write this same text in my diary, but it doesn't work again... -.-'
Ugh, I think I go again to do something clever...