Hmmmh...

So, now I have the new look in my hair ! And I have to say that I love it!
And the lip piercing, is fucking awesom too! although, my lip is swollen a bit and it hurts. 'Course I could put some ice cubes there, but... naaah.

Oh, and i still don't know what to do with my school... ?! Sure it would be best that I start this final year over, but the industry what I'm sturdying; it's not what I want to do. I want to do something with different languages, I want more languages skills and want to learn new languaes. Sure I could do with english everywhere, but does it enough? It'd be better if you speak more languages than your native language and one forgein language...

But, we'll see what I'm going to do and where... I also have thinking that if I move to America, or somewhere else. I just don't feel that I belong to Finland, if you know what I mean. Sure I don't have any reasons by force to move out of Finland... It's just.. I just really don't feel like I'm home. I don't know where that feeling have became, but it's really strong.
Sure I could regret it if I now move out of Finland... everything stays here; my family and friends. Or should I say my few friends.

And, there -where I move, if I move- could come that I don't trust people very much, so there I don't surely have any friends, who I could tell everthing of everything...
But God bless that person who have had made internet !!

Maybe I just should start to think everything, over and over again, and think what I really want to do; even I don't know it yet. Maybe I don't never know it, but who knows, what I'll do... like byt five or ten years... I could be dead by theb, or I could be with some rich man, or woman... OR something like that, it never knows. Time will show it, day by day.

xoxo;

Mr. Pallokala