Have you thought, why?

Then when you are doing something,
Do you think why are you doing it?
Or do you just do it what you are doing?

For example, when you clean;
do you think about why are you cleaning,
or do you just clean?

My guide at my school's practice period in job,
asked me one day why I am doing ssomething
what I did at the time?
I was a little embarrassed, because I didn't see
that coming.

But then I really start to think about it;
Why I am cleaning the way I am?
Or why I am cleaning at all?
Which make me wonder that
are you just doing what you are doing
without thinking about it.

Do you just keep it self-evident?
Nothing in this world isn't self-evident,
even you think yes it is.
Some way, yes there are things which are
self-evident, but in the other hand
the things are not!

-Ronnie

Could I ever deal with it

It's been almost two months when they quitted
I thought I'm over it and my life is smiling,
but I've realized that I haven't.
How long it takes?
Will my heart be broken the rest of my life?

How could I get over it?
How could I listen the music without crying?
Is there anything that could ease the pain?
Will I ever found a band like them?

This won't be easy,
here's gonna be lot more tears
My heart is bleeding
What if I forget about them,
even I don't want to?

Is there any other band,
which lyrics I could easily identify?
Lyrics where I could find the ease for my pain
Lyrics which describes my feelings

Could I just ever deal with this?
Could I ever know the reason why?
Culd I ever be happy and confident,
when I'm listening their music?

Could I just ever deal with it?

-Ronnie